My desire

My desire- Jeremy camp

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
You want to be someone laying down your pride
You want to be someone someday
Then lay it all down before the king

You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside
You want to have virtue and purify your mind

You want to be set free today
Then lay it all down before the king

This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
And I know my heart is to feel you near
And I know my life
It's to do your will
It's to do your will

All my life I have seen
Where you've take me
Beyond all I have hoped
And there's more left unseen

There's not much I can do to repay all you've done
So I give you my hands to use


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This song is my prayer. I want to be used by God.

I am learning so many things in college, but mostly I am learning about myself. I am learning how far I can actually push myself toward the breaking point without going over. I am also going over the breaking point. I am pushing and being pushed past my limits physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually and I'm not sure I like it any more. I like the new definition of my limits, but exactly how far is too far?

I am becoming an independent person, but I am still so dependent on other people. I'm not necessarily talking about my parents...I mean my friends and mentors. I see my coaches everyday and I have really grown to love them. They talk about everything with us from softball to school to social lives. I love my friends dearly and as busy as I have been, I realize how much I depend on them everyday. It's hard not to see them all the time.