shaken confidence...

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."-Ralph Waldo Emerson.

This is a quote I used to live by but now I'm not so sure of it. I am a dreamer and I follow most of my dreams, but lately life has been a little different. Life. It just rolls by, and as it does, I live it. I was starting to "figure things out." I was confident and comfortable with what i was doing and where I was going to go. I had lived out dreams and had many more that were still just dreams. and then...BAM...I hit a road block. it wasn't too major, but it definatly didn't make me happy. But I got over it, or at least I thought I did. Until the very next day when BAM! I hit another one. this one was a little tougher to process and I still haven'd gotten over it. Two days later, which happened to be yesterday, it happened again. BAM...but this time it wasn't a road block, it was a crushed dream. Literally, my dream ended. I don't know what to think, and to be honest, I don't want to think about it at all, but it consumes my thoughts.

The problem with this crushed dream is that it has shaken me up. I know have very little sense of where I was going on the road I was headed down. This dream wasn't just a dream...I was trying to make it a reality. It was plan A and there was no plan B. this was going to be it.

As I sit and write this post, I can't help but get so angry. I don't know what to do now... I don't have any ideas at all. This was the only option and this was the right option. I am so sure. This was the life I had imagined.

Maybe this was what the people around the gulf coast felt like. They had dreams that were crushed in a matter of minutes. It's different, but it is so much the same. It is a crushed dream.